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.” It sounded as absolutely pathetic aloud as it had in my head.I could see the vein in Jasper’s neck pumping furiously, and I knew he was pissed.As he should be.It was so stupid of me, and I had no excuse.“Who did you tell?” he asked finally.“Sean,” I said.“And Sara.And Gabe and Toby were there, too.”“God damn it, Trevor!” Jasper jumped to his feet, sending the chessboard and all of its pieces flying around the room.“How fucking stupid are you?”“Calm down, Jasper,” Wes said calmly.“It was a mistake.”“It was stupid!” Jasper stood with his fists clenched at his sides, and I saw the fire in his eyes.“I can’t believe you would do that.”“I know!” I yelled back.“I didn’t mean to, I swear.But you’ve got me so busy keeping secrets from people I can’t even see straight.You’re sneaking around with me and with Wesley, and I can’t even talk to my best friend anymore.My whole life is being consumed by you and your stupid…hugger-mugger that I can’t have a conversation with anyone.”“I don’t think you’re using that right,” Jasper said with a smile.“Sure he is.” Wes laughed.“Haven’t you read the dictionary?”“Who reads the dictionary?” Jasper asked.“The people who have read all of the other books on the island,” I said.“Though you military men probably hoard all of the good books and lock them up with the tarps and the batteries.”“We don’t, but that’s a good idea.” Jasper walked over to me and put his arms around my waist.“I’m sorry I yelled at you.”“You are?” I asked suspiciously.“Are you drunk, too?”“No,” he said laughing.“I’ve just been having a long talk with my very good doctor friend, and he’s made me aware that I am being very unfair to you.”“He has?”“Yes.” Jasper kissed the tip of my nose.“I’m sorry.” I was frozen on the spot.He was apologizing to me after I told him that I had royally fucked up? This was not the Jasper I knew.I wondered if the doctor had learned voodoo or something and cast a spell on my General.Even when Jasper was calm he wasn’t this calm.“I’m going to find my husband and make sure he isn’t planning a sneak attack on Make Out Beach,” Wesley said, heading for the door.“You two play nice.I don’t feel like patching up any broken noses or anything tonight.”“Yes, doctor,” Jasper said, not looking away from me.Wes left, shutting the door softly behind him.Jasper and I were alone in the silent room, and I had no idea what to do or say to him.Apparently, he felt the same way because we stood there with his arms around me for a good long while, both lost in our thoughts.My brain whirred a mile a minute, trying to make sense of what had just happened.He’d started off like the same old Jasper, screaming and freaking out on me, then he’d turned on a dime and laughed.He was pissed, and he laughed.None of this made sense.“Was it the hugger-mugger?” I asked finally, not knowing what else to say but sick of the silence.He laughed again and led me over to the chairs in front of his desk.“Well, it is a very funny word.Apparently, I need to read the dictionary.I’ll have to put that on my to-do list.I think I’ll stick it between ‘duct tape Trevor’s mouth shut’ and ‘fuck Trevor senseless.’”“I think I’m liking this list,” I said with a small smile.“I really am sorry, Jasper.I swear I wasn’t planning to tell anyone.You trusted me with the secret, and I totally blew it.” I felt so bad, and I didn’t know how to make it better.It was almost worse that Jasper was being so reasonable.Yelling and screaming I could deal with.Rational Jasper was too far out of my wheelhouse to comprehend.“Trevor, you’re absolutely right.I keep putting you in bad situations with your friends.You shouldn’t have to hide things from Sean or anyone else for that matter.You’ve been very patient with me, for the most part, and I appreciate that.But you won’t have to deal with that for much longer.”Oh no.He was going to end it.That was why he was so calm.He wouldn’t have to worry about me telling his secrets anymore because he wasn’t going to see me again.“I can’t do this,” I said, standing up.I had to steady myself with a hand on his desk.I was still sort of drunk.That coupled with the pain in my chest, and I didn’t know how much longer I could go without vomiting.“What?” Jasper asked, standing up, too.“I thought—oh, well, I guess I’m not surprised.You’ve put up with me long enough, I guess.I couldn’t expect you to wait around forever for me to make up my mind.”“I did wait around, and it was forever.And I can’t believe you’re leaving me after all of this
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